Indomitable Will, Tender Heart - 8


Author: Taryn
Email: Write Me!
Rating: Strong R (language - this chapter)
Disclaimer: Don't own them, yadda yadda.  See Chapter 1...
Author's Notes: For the record, the town where Marie lives is a real place. Cobleskill is in mid-state New York; 191 miles
northwest of Westchester (3 hours and 20 minutes by car), 40 miles west of Albany (also the capitol) and has a 2000 Census
population of 5,772....plus or minus our two favorite mutants!
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Marie finished her shower and toweled off, brushing her teeth and then dressing quickly in a pair of cargo pants and her favorite comfy gray sweatshirt with a hood.  After drying her hair and pulling it back on each side with a clip, she slipped on some thick wool socks and wandered down the hall to find Logan. 

He was sitting on the windowseat in the living room, a can of Molson's next to him and his head bowed over the copy of "1984" in his lap.  She noticed he'd borrowed the notepad and pen that she usually kept by the phone and there were several things written on it in bold black strokes.  He glanced up when she walked in, closing the book and draining the can of beer.

"Thanks again, darlin'....that really hit the spot."

"You're welcome.  So - are you enjoying the book?"

He nodded, standing up and stretching with a lithe grace, reminding her once again of the uncanny similarities between the Wolverine and her big, black cat.

"Yeah.  I kinda remember parts of it, so I think I musta read it before....a long time ago."

"Hmm....well, that's not too surprising.  I mean, it is a classic.  It was also made into a really terrific movie starring John Hurt and Richard Burton as Winston and O'Brien."

His expression grew thoughtful.  "Richard Burton....ain't he the guy who was with Elizabeth Taylor?"

"Yep.  They were married twice and starred in several movies together, including 'Cleopatra'.  He died shortly after '1984' was released....in 1984!  Isn't that strange?"

Logan was smirking at her and Marie looked at him, puzzled.  "...What?"

"You got a lot of that kinda book-stuff stored up in your head, don't ya?"

Her smile was sheepish.  "Embarrassing, but true.  My friends at school used to tease me about it, but that didn't stop them
from coming to me whenever they needed a trivia question answered."  She shrugged.  "Maybe that's why I've always felt so at-home with computers and libraries....it's like we both have these big databases full of information stored inside us.  In my case, though, most of it is pretty useless!"

Logan stared down at the book in his hand, his expression suddenly clouding.  "The stuff in your head ain't useless.  It's what makes ya who ya are.....and if ya ever lost it, you'd probably do just about anythin' to get it back again."

Marie swallowed.   Oh, God....he's referring to himself.  Poor guy.  I wonder just how much he can't remember?  She put on a cheerful smile.  Time for a subtle change of subject....  "So, um....what were you writing?  Cuz, if you need something bigger, I've got a few legal pads and some notebook paper in my desk --"

He shook his head.  "Nah....I was just makin' a list of the supplies I gotta get to fix up your guest room."   And because I'm a low-life asshole, you're even gonna have to cover the cost up-front until I can get the money together to pay ya back.  Christ....

She blinked.   Right....supplies.  I forgot all about that.   "Oh....okay.  Like I said, there's no rush or anything, but, um, if you're up for a drive, we can stop and get whatever you need at the hardware store in town.  Besides, I've got someplace I'd really like to show you."

Logan frowned, but tore off the piece of paper and pocketed it.  "Uh...yeah, sure.  Lemme just use the bathroom first."

He quickly brushed his teeth and splashed cold water on his face. Raking both hands through his hair in an unsuccessful attempt to tame it, he fixed his mirrored reflection with a scowl.  Give it up, bub.  She says she likes ya, but the truth is - Marie likes everybody.  It don't really matter what she thinks of ya, though, cuz ya sure as hell don't deserve somebody as good as her.  She'll figure that out soon enough and then you'll never see her again.   With a ragged sigh, he opened the door and went to join her in the front hallway.  She had her coat on and waited patiently - keys in hand - while he shrugged back into his jacket.

"Ready?"

"..'Guess so.  Where we goin'?"

"You'll see."  Marie smiled mysteriously over her shoulder as she ushered him out the door, locking it behind them.  He blinked rapidly against the glare of the brilliant sunshine on the new-fallen snow, but a quick sniff of the air told him their currently fair weather wasn't likely to last long.  Following her over to the dark-green Land Rover parked in the driveway, he started to open the passenger door when she abruptly held out the keys to him.

"Wanna drive?"

He cocked an eyebrow at her but accepted them without question.  After unlocking the door and letting her in, he made his way around to the driver's side, giving the car an admiring glance.   Although he'd been a passenger in the vehicle once already, he hadn't exactly been in the state of mind to appreciate it.

"Nice wheels."

"Thanks!"  Marie smiled as he started the engine.  "This was a present from Professor Xavier when I moved here.  You can take the man out of England..."  He backed out of the driveway and - at her instruction - began heading east, away from town.  "At first, I thought it was a lot more car than I actually needed, but the 4-Wheel Drive has helped me out on more than one occasion, so Charles obviously knew better than I did."  She quirked a grin.  "Not too surprising, I guess, considering he is a telepath!"

Logan smirked.  "So...does the Prof buy expensive cars for all of his former students?  Or just his favorites?"

An odd look ghosted across Marie's face, but she recovered quickly, turning to look out the window.  "Well, he does nice things for all the students, of course, but I think he felt a little closer to me than to the rest.  We developed a kind of father-daughter bond right from the start....due to my, um, circumstances."

Giving himself a mental kick for obviously touching upon a delicate subject, Logan only grunted in reply, and they drove in silence for a few minutes;  civilization - or what passed for it around these parts - rapidly disappearing behind them.  The surrounding countryside was growing increasingly rugged, with steep snow-covered hills and deep ravines on either side of the road.  He spotted a sign up ahead of them which read "Cobleskill ~ Making History Everyday" and glanced over at Marie.

Welcome To Cobleskill

"Cobleskill, huh?  I was wonderin' where we were."  That was only partially true.  He didn't mention that he rarely bothered to catch the name of the towns he passed through.  What was the point? Same day, same town, new day, different town.....none of it really mattered much to him.  The places he found himself in and the people he met were always cut from similar cloth. Or, at least, they were until now....

Marie grinned.  Adopting her best 'tour guide' voice, she said, "Oh!  Well, then, let me be the first to officially welcome you to the Village of Cobleskill, New York.  We're located near the foothills of the beautiful Catskill Mountains, with a population of around 5,500 or so.  The town center has one hospital, three banks, one library - which you've already seen - four schools, two grocery and various other stores, five bars, ten churches....and, as if that weren't enough, we're also the proud host of the Sunshine Fair every August."

He chuckled.  "Sounds like a happenin' place."

"Well, it's not exactly the Excitement Capital, but that's probably why I fell in love with it.  I had more than enough 'excitement' by the time I got to Westchester - and even after - to last me for awhile."

"Westchester?"   Huh.  'Wonder what her idea of 'more than enough excitement' is?

"That's where Xavier's School is located, about three and a half hours south of here.  I lived there for nearly three years, before moving here sixteen months ago."

Before he could respond, she pointed to a fork in the road up ahead.  "We need to go left there."

After two more miles and a steep incline that forced Logan to use the Rover's lauded 4-Wheel Drive, Marie instructed him to pull over next to an ancient looking split-rail fence bordering a densely wooded piece of land.  They both got out and Marie waited by the fence as Logan pocketed the keys, pausing a moment to look around and sniff the air.

"Is that super-sniffer of yours picking up anything we should be worried about?" she teased.  He shook his head, the barest hint of a smirk on his face.

"Nah....just habit.  'Can't smell a thing except nature."  He took another appreciative sniff. "That's pretty rare these days."

"..And that's precisely why I brought you here.  Come on....I think you're really gonna like it."  She turned and climbed over the fence, quickly disappearing into the woods.  After one last scan of their surroundings, Logan followed her.

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Woods.  Thick, almost primeval, forest as far as his eyes could see.  He inhaled deeply, the pungent smells of damp earth and small, furred animals filling his nose.  His hearing, as well as his sense of smell, detected a large body of water rushing urgently, somewhere nearby.

For all her claiming to be a klutz, Marie was surprisingly agile, sliding down steep inclines with a sure-footed grace and clambering up rocky outcroppings with confidence in spite of the thick gloves on her hands and the snow accumulation on the ground.  While he wasn't particularly light on his feet, probably outweighing her by more than a hundred pounds, Logan managed to keep up with very little difficulty.  Now that he'd gotten a few hours of sleep and plenty of solid food, he could feel even more of his strength returning.  His senses were sharp and his mind was more clear than it had been in.....well, in quite awhile, anyway.  Maybe all that had been required was a dose or two of some serious protein and some decent shut-eye to drag the ol' healing factor back from whatever corner it had been cowering in?  He had his doubts that he was ready for a cage-match just yet, but - with any luck - he hoped everything would be back to normal soon.

Marie suddenly came to a stop just ahead of him and he welcomed the opportunity to catch his breath, swiping at the perspiration on his face with the back of one hand and looking around appraisingly.  They were standing on the edge of a craggy ridge, with a panoramic view of the snow-dusted ravine below them.  Glancing down through the trees, he could just make out the bank of the river.  Marie smiled at him over her shoulder and he braced himself against the steep pitch as he began his descent behind her.  Slow and steady, the only sounds the crunch of the snow and twigs under their feet and the occasional bird call, they carefully hiked downward.  Once at the bottom, Marie deliberately picked her way over to an outcropping of large, jagged rocks that extended over and above the rushing water.  She clambered up easily before turning and extending a hand to him.  Logan raised an eyebrow at her offer of assistance, but swallowed his pride and grasped her hand in his, finding an adequate foothold and boosting himself up next to her, grateful they'd finally reached their destination.

Waterfall

He hopped up on a triangular rock that was jutting out next to him, splaying his long legs out around either side of its sharp center edge.  From this lofty vantage point, he was six feet away and slightly above where Marie was settling herself on a large boulder.  It gave him a slight physical advantage, should someone- or something - try to approach them.  There was no danger lurking, nor did he truly expect any, but you never could tell.  No matter how isolated you thought you were, civilization was never quite far enough away for his comfort-level.  Vague, unrecalled experiences from long-ago had ingrained in him all too well that it was always best to be prepared for anything.

Finally, his gaze swung to meet hers and he realized she was watching him, her eyes bright. Her scent drifted to him on the stiff breeze, smelling of the wind and soap and that soft, citrusy scent that reminded him vaguely of lemons.  Rather than being intrusive in this wild place, it seemed to fit right in, blending naturally with the fresh snow and the tang of the river spray.  Her cheeks were flushed pink from their hike and one of her white streaks had come loose from the hairclip, dancing languidly around her face.  She tucked it behind her ear and his fingers ached, as if wishing they were doing the tucking -...or untucking...-

"So - whaddya think?"

"What?"   Pay attention, bub....she's talkin' about the scenery - not how beautiful she looks or how good she smells.   "Oh...yeah.  I like it."  He grunted appreciatively.  "Very scenic."

She started to say something but her attention was suddenly focused on a point beyond his shoulder.  Logan stiffened instinctively, but the look in Marie's eyes was one of awe.  Still gazing past him, she whispered,  "Logan....look!"
Eagle in flight
He turned, following her gaze over his shoulder as a Bald Eagle appeared high above the treeline.  It appeared to be an adult male, its wingspan easily more than six-feet wide.  The bird soared directly overhead, not much more than a silhouette against the bright sky, splendid and wild and fearless.  They continued to watch him in silence for a few moments, until his great wings picked up a shift in the air current and he glided out of sight behind the next ridge.  Finally, Logan cleared his throat.

"...Friend of yours?"

Marie laughed.  "I've seen eagles around here before, but none of them have ever come that close."   Maybe he senses a kindred spirit, down here with me?  A shiver ran up her spine and she shook her head in wonder.  "Isn't he just magnificent?"

"Yeah, he is."   And so are you, darlin'.  I guess what they say about 'birds of a feather' is true....

Breaking the spell that had seemingly been woven around them, Logan reached into his pocket and unwrapped a cigar.  Biting off the end, he fired it up and released a fragrant cloud of smoke into the air, savoring both the taste and the aroma.

"..Did I, um, do okay with those?"

Blowing a perfect smoke ring above his head, he smiled.  "Ya did great.  They're the next-best thing to Cubans."

Marie exhaled a sigh of relief.  "Oh, good....I'm glad."

There was an almost pregnant silence between them.  The air was heavy with it.  While the scenery was indeed beautiful, it seemed to be holding Logan's interest with an iron fist.  Puffing on the cigar, he absently rubbed the knuckles of one hand, his gaze focused on the rushing water below, but Marie could tell his mind was elsewhere....

She sighed.  Admittedly, talking about themselves - about their pasts - would be harder on him than on her, but there were things about herself that she still didn't find easy to share.   Well, I guess it's revelation time....

Her hands were in the pockets of her coat, and she was looking at him with an anxious - nervous? - expression on her face.  He tapped the ash from his cigar, chomping down on it again.

"...What?"

"Nothing, I-- " She bit her lip.  Hell, she's real nervous.  I wonder what kinda bad shit's happened in her past?  Whatever it is, it ain't her fault....she oughta know that.  "Why don't we just, uh, take turns....you know, we could ask each other questions about the stuff we want to know....that way you can answer just a little bit, or a lot....okay?"

Logan nodded, scanning what little he could see of the horizon through the trees to avoid meeting her earnest gaze.  "Yeah, okay."

Marie squared her shoulders.  "Right.  Well, um.....why don't you ask me something first?"

"Hmph."  He shifted his position on the rock before responding.  "Where'd ya come from?  I mean, where did ya grow up?  Cuz sometimes I'd swear I'm hearin' a southern accent....?"

"You can take the girl out of the south, but I guess you can't take the south out of the girl, huh?" She nodded, smiling.  "I was born and raised in Mississippi....lived there until I was almost seventeen."

"Why'd ya leave?"

"Hey....it's my turn!"  At the mock glare she shot his way, he grinned.  "Sorry, darlin'.  Ask away."  My part's gonna be over-with pretty quick though, cuz I ain't got a lot of answers for ya.

"Okay....you already said you think you're Canadian, so I won't ask you about that."  Wow, this is harder than I thought....I gotta stick to the easy stuff, so it doesn't make him uncomfortable...  "Hmm - I know....how old are you?"

Logan shrugged.  "Dunno."

Marie couldn't help frowning at him.  "You really don't remember your age?  Well, okay.... ..then what about your birthday?"

"Hey, that's two questions."  He fixed her with a mock glare like she'd given him.  Marie didn't smile, though.  Instead, she looked concerned, awaiting his response.  "..'Got no idea how old I am.  My healin' factor don't let me age like other people." He shrugged again, puffing savagely on the cigar.  "Dunno my birthday, either."

"Oh."  She mulled that over for a long moment.  This was much harder than she'd initially thought it would be.

He cocked an eyebrow at her.  "Can I ask somethin' now?"  At her nod, he blew another smoke ring.  "Why'd ya leave Mississippi and come up north?"

She glanced out over the ravine, her eyes focused on the rapids below, but a different scene was playing out in her mind. "Well, um...after my mutation kicked in, my parents couldn't handle the fact that their daughter was a freak, so....I, uh, kinda figured it would be best for everybody if I left."

"Your own parents didn't want ya when they found out you were a mutie?"  His voice mirrored the angry expression on his face.  Marie didn't even bother to remind him that it was her turn to ask a question.  She took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

"Yeah, pretty much.  My dad was really upset, but he probably would've let me stay.  My mom....she just went ballistic. 'Told me I was unclean and God was punishing me, and lots of other stuff.  I just packed up a few things and took off two days later.  I mean, what's the point of sticking around when you're not welcome anymore?"

Her tone was matter-of-fact, but there was the unmistakeable sheen of tears in her eyes.  Logan clenched his fists, struggling against the urge to pop the claws and rip into something.  God help me if I ever meet up with either one of her folks....I'd gut 'em just as soon as look at 'em.   With some difficulty, he forced himself to remain calm.

"So then what did ya do?  Ya headed north and...."

She nodded tightly.  "I used to dream about Canada when I was a little girl.  It probably sounds pretty silly, but having been raised in the south and never seeing snow, Canada just seemed like this magical, foreign winter-wonderland to me, you know?"

"It ain't silly, darlin'.  If ya wanna see the white stuff, that's definitely the place to go."  He quirked a grin at her.  "They don't call it the Great White North for nothin'."

"That's what I thought, too."  Marie smiled, blinking back tears.  "So, um, I headed north....and I was doing pretty good, too.  It took me almost a month, but I made it all the way to Buffalo.  I went that way because I thought it might be nice to see Niagara Falls before I crossed into Canada.  Anyway, I got to Buffalo and then....well, then I sorta  got....ambushed --"

"Whaddya mean, ambushed?  What happened?"

She rubbed her arms through her thick coat, but Logan knew she wasn't cold.  He took one last puff on the cigar before grinding it out against the rock and shoving the remainder in his pocket.  Crossing his arms over his chest, he waited impatiently for Marie to reply.

"It's kind of a long story....but, uh, that's what we're here for, right?"  She tried for a smile, but it was more like a grimace. God, I really hate talking about this, but maybe he'll feel better about sharing with me once he knows I've been through some unpleasant stuff too?   "Are you familiar with the Mutant Registration Act that the US Government tried to pass four years ago?"  He nodded curtly.  He'd seen headlines about that.  "Um....what about the incident that occured during the U.N. Summit of the World Leaders?"  Logan searched his memory, but nothing surfaced.  Frowning, he shook his head.  Clearing her throat, Marie continued.  "Well, I had star billing in that little drama, even though I never auditioned for the role."

There was an underlying bitterness in her voice and Logan felt his muscles tensing.  Again, he willed himself to remain calm as she went on.  "A very powerful mutant, named Erik Lehnsherr, was worried that the Registration Act would pass. You see - he'd already lived through the Nazi Occupation of Europe as a young boy, and he was convinced that if Registration was enforced, mutants would suffer the same fate as the Jews during World War II.  Anyway, Erik's mutation was the ability to control and manipulate metals.  He developed a machine that would use an advanced form of electro-magnetic radiation to turn the World Leaders into mutants - literally overnight!  The problem was;  Erik was already in his sixties and he just wasn't strong enough to power the machine by himself."  She swallowed hard.  "That's why he needed me."

Marie rubbed her arms again, doing her best to ignore Logan's fierce scowl.  "Erik needed someone with the ability to absorb the lifeforce from other living things.  He'd obviously been searching for a mutant who fit the bill, and I think he must've read about me in the local papers.  See, my mutation manifested during my, um, first kiss and the boy ended up in a coma for almost a month.  News like that tends to spread like wildfire....especially in a small town."  She faltered, her breathing harsh, but set her jaw and continued.  "Long story short;  when I got to Buffalo, some of Erik's people had managed to track me there.  They kidnapped me and put me in the machine....it was attached to the base of Liberty's torch.  Erik transfered his ability to me and then used me to power the device."

She knew what was coming next, and Logan didn't disappoint.  With a growl, he asked - no, demanded, "So how the hell did ya get out?"

"Um, well....that's where Professor Xavier figures in.  He and Erik, they used to be old friends.....many years ago.  They sorta went their separate ways when Charles began funding humanitarian causes and then especially after he created the school.  Charles believes that humans and mutants can coexist, if each side is properly educated about - and tolerant of - the other.  Erik said Charles was just one more misguided fool who didn't learn anything from the Holocaust."

Marie took a deep breath.  "Anyway, Professor Xavier foresaw the Mutant Registration Act going before Congress.  He also knew that Erik was planning something, set to take place during the Summit. Charles had put together a team of his best former students, primarily to keep track of Erik's activities and to stop whatever he had planned, if need be.  This team is called the 'X-Men' and they showed up at the Summit just after Erik arrived."  Logan was clenching and unclenching his fists and she swallowed. "The X-Men are the ones who cut me loose from the machine and saved my life.  I owe everything to them, and to Charles."

His posture was tense and his brows were knitted tightly together.  "...Is that how ya ended up at Xavier's school?"  Marie nodded.

"Charles took me in and gave me free room and board while I finished high school.  And then, when he found out that my parents, uh, kicked me out, he even had papers drawn up to make himself my legal guardian."  She smiled, remembering fondly.  "I was so grateful to him, for everything he did for me, that when I turned eighteen I petitioned the court to change my last name to 'Xavier'.  I really wanted to honor him, somehow, and that seemed like a fitting way to do it."

Her smile and now-lightened mood did nothing to appease Logan, however.  His eyes were like burning coals as he jumped down from his rocky perch, stalking over to Marie on legs that were tightly coiled.

"You're not tellin' me everythin', Marie."  He leaned in toward her, his face only inches from hers. It took every bit of control she possessed to hold her ground and not back away from him.  "How bad was it?"

She stammered, "H-how bad was what?"

Logan's grip on her shoulders was firm.  It would've been painful, if not for the thick downy lining of her winter coat.  Still, the pressure was enough to make her wince and keep her rooted to the spot.

"How bad were ya hurt?"  At the guilty look on her face, his fingers tightened.  "I know that Erik fucker musta hurt ya bad.   I can smell the truth on ya."  He leaned in again, the look in his eyes both feral and strangely protective.  "Why don't ya wanna say it, Marie?  Tell me what the prick did to ya.  Just say the word and I'll hunt his sorry ass down.  When I'm done with him, he'll fuckin' regret that he ever laid eyes on --"

"He's dead, Logan."  Marie was staring at him, her voice a mere whisper.  She'd never seen anyone in such an animalistic state before, and it was suddenly clear why her mysterious new friend had been given the nickname 'Wolverine'.  "The authorities arrested him, but Erik died a few hours later.  The transfer of his powers to me was too much of a strain on his heart.  He didn't make it."

Whether due to the wary look on her face or the finality of her words, Marie didn't know, but something seemed to shift inside Logan.  He let go of her shoulders and took a step back, scrubbing his jaw with the back of his hand.  "Yeah?  Well, too fuckin' bad for him.  I woulda enjoyed guttin' him for ya.  The asshole definitely had it comin'."  

His eyes were still intense, but the feral expression was rapidly being replaced by concern and....fear?  Oh, God....he's afraid for me!  Afraid that I was hurt beyond repair.  I think - he feels powerless, like he could've - would've - come to my rescue, if only he had known.  And...maybe he's even afraid that something like that could happen again...?  

At that moment, she knew that she had nothing to fear from the Wolverine.  He would never harm her.  Rather, he would protect her with everything he had.....even his life, if necessary.  She bit her lip in an effort to rein in the tears. While the thought of him being forced to do something like that made her blood run cold, she was still humbled beyond words at Logan's deep, heartfelt concern for her.

"So...how bad did he hurt ya, Marie?"  Logan's voice was gruff, but much softer now, though no less demanding.  She knew she would have to answer him....tell him the truth.  He would never settle for any less.  After all, if she wanted him to be open and honest with her, she owed him at least that much in return.

"It...it was pretty bad - at least in the beginning.  To be honest, the details are still kinda fuzzy.  I must've blacked out in the machine, because I don't remember the X-Men pulling me out.  I woke up in the medlab at Professor Xavier's mansion, where the school is located.  The doctors there, Jean and Hank, told me I'd been in...a coma for almost ten days."  Marie shuddered in spite of herself, but raised her chin and went on.  "The bottom line, though, is:  I survived and got better and everything was back to normal - or what passes for normal where I'm concerned, anyway - about three weeks later."  A wry grin was tugging at her mouth.  "Hey....it wasn't all bad --"  She indicated the loose white hair dancing around her face.  "At least I got a cool souvenir!"

Logan reached out and stroked one of the tendrils with a fingertip.  "Yeah, I wondered about those." He cleared his throat.  "I'm real sorry you hadta go through all that shit, Marie.  I hope the way I acted a few minutes ago didn't scare ya, but -- ya gotta understand....I'm just itchin' to go find those fuckers and gut 'em for hurtin' ya like that."

Marie smiled, wondering if he realized he was still playing with her hair.  "I know, and I appreciate the fact that you'd be willing to do that for me.  It really means a lot.  But that was four years ago and it's behind me now.  God willing, I just want to make sure it stays there....in the past!"

Logan didn't return her smile but his eyes were soft as he took a step back, reluctantly letting her hair slip through his fingers. " I can't argue that, darlin'..."  And if any of those other pricks who were workin' with that Erik guy ever come after ya for a repeat performance, they're gonna get introduced to the business end of my claws.

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Posted April 2002


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